Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Gone.









I'm done. I can't be here anymore. If I don't have Daisy, I have no purpose in life... I'm gone... Daisy will see what a mistake she's made but by then it will be too late.. I'll already be gone.





 I'm already gone...

besides, if you think I'm joking... I've just posted a Kelly Clarkson song... That's mortifying enough to want to kill myself... but it doesn't matter anymore because I'm done...I'm gone...


 

It's done...

I asked her...
It was the perfect moment.....








She told me she couldn't...that she had to stay with Tom in order to no ruin her daughter's life...what bull shit. Her daughter would be happier with me. I know it.

I can't believe this is happening to me... Daisy denied me to my face... what more is there for me in life... nothing. I know of nothing that is worth it...

Daisy was the one thing keeping me here...

I'm done...

I found it!

I bought the perfect engagement ring for Daisy!

 

ISN'T IT PERFECT?!

It's her!

I know she can't(won't) say 'no' now!

oh, I also found the perfect so for me and her!

Daisy is the best thing...

I know I do.

I think I wanna marry Daisy...

I know I do...

This needs to happen.

I don't know what I'll do if she denies me...

Life would be to hard to continue knowing she denied me...

I had it all planned out...

I knew what our wedding would look like...

We would get married in the summer in our backyard by our pool... Our wedding colors would be an emerald green...
Daisy would wear a flowing dress and she would be wearing her pearls that I adore.
I, myself would wear a bow tie...Nick by my side and Jordan at Daisy's side...
Our daughter, the flower girl...

It all made sense in my head. It was perfect. I don't think anyone could have a more perfect day... We'll be together forever.

Where did I go wrong?

I can't...

I just can't play this game anymore. I know I'm supposed to be this strong, independent guy, but I need Daisy...

This song perfectly describes my anguish...

Pills - The Perishers

Maybe it's me...

Maybe there is something wrong with me...

Every time I try to win her over, things just go further the opposite direction! I can't keep trying like this! It's draining!

I'm trying to figure out how to change, I ask her and she tells me nothing. It's feels as if I am nothing to her. As if we never meant anything to each other.



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